Pooh side (get the bad over with first, end on the good!) was the whole health ordeal... what a wake up and reality call that was... I mean really... the only way to explain how bad that was requires bad language, which I will spare you, so.... I'll just leave it to your imagination.
Good side... Jessica and Winston got married. I got a new sassy car. Life offered me an opportunity to see a lot of good in a lot of people. Life showed me I can not control many things, and those things I truly can not control, I have to just let it go and continue to focus on myself and finishing up this recovery period. I have found lots of inner peace and happiness. I've been humbled. I've been VERY loved and cared for, and I got to spread the love back.
Physically the health ordeal was beyond any pain I have ever known and it truly sucked the life out of me. Mentally, I reflect back that I always felt positive, knowing the only way to get through it was to take each day one at a time, which I did. I had Joe with me every day, who tenderly cared for me no matter how exhausted he was from a 12 hour day at the office. Mr. positive... and even tho he knew it would cause some pain, he would make me laugh every day. And most of all, he just understood. Those moments of raw emotion between you and your partner of many years are precious and priceless.... blazened in my memory forever.... will cherish them forever. THANK YOU Joe for all you have done and all you continue to do for me! I sure hope I have another 50 years with you!!!!
As winter finally passes and spring arrives, I'm feeling better and I feel like a toddler on a first adventure into the grass barefoot! Joe and I attended many weddings this summer, each special and beautiful, nights full of love, happiness and wedding day bliss! Then summer arrives and it has been a FUN summer! I started on my Julia project (and this blog) and both have been rewarding and the best fun I have had since I was a kid playing field ball all summer with Joe and my cousins. Then I started back into pilates classes, re-connecting and chatting with my lady friends and getting awesome workouts from Angie and Gayle. When I reflect back and remember this summer, I will remember lots of butter and all the yummy dishes I've made and how much I have enjoyed getting re-aquainted with Julia Child through all her books and DVD's and recipes. Autumn is nearing and I continue to gain strength and energy and keep taking one day at a time. Autumn brings traveling abroad trips, my last class of culinary school, and many, many, many more days in the kitchen with Julia.
I would still have to give my 50th year an A! Au Voir 50.... Bonjour 51.... what surprises do you have waiting for me?
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