Closure

As it is said... all good things must come to and end... and eventually they finally do... and then it's called "Closure"... which I find is usually bittersweet.  The closure I am referring to in this blog is about my Grandmother and her condo.

In previous blogs I have talked about the passing of my dear sweet Grandmother just 9 months ago... and yet... I can't believe it has been 9 months already!!!... and while I miss her everyday... I also think of her and send her a kiss goodnight everyday.  After her funeral, my Mom and Aunt had to get to the business of closing her estate, which meant going through all her possessions and paperwork.  Not an easy task for anyone... especially while grieving.  But... unfortunately this task had to be done.  Several months ago, after dispersing of all of Grandma's wordly goods, my Mom and Aunt then had to put Grandma's condo up for sale.  After several months on the market, Grandma's condo has been sold, the sale will be finalized next week. Thus.... selling of Grandma's condo is... the "Final Closure"... all that is left now are our sweet, sweet memories of her, and a few possessions of hers that we each have and cherish dearly.

The bittersweetness comes from all the wonderful memories that I, and my family have of times spent with Grandma up in her condo, and the knowing that it is no longer a place we can go to be with and spend time with her, but also that the worries of settling her estate has finally come to and end as well.

I live out of state and am fortunate enough that I never had to see her condo empty of all her possessions.  I will always see her condo just the way she had it... I smell the fresh scent of her sheets and blankets as I cuddled up under them many a night I spent with her... I smell the sausage aroma that would greet you first thing in the morning as you awoke... I see her sitting at her small kitchen table drinking her tea and reading the morning newspaper... I see the 'old desk' sitting in the corner (our favorite spot to play on as children) and the place where her fiber optic Christmas Tree stood each year... I see her thimble collection nicely displayed throughout the condo in several display domes and boxes... I see the medicine cabinet that hung on her bathroom wall that attended to all of our ails or boo boo's... I see the beautiful striped wallpaper in her guest bathroom that I loved soo much, I tried to duplicate in one of my own homes....  I see her bedroom closet that seemed to hold endless goodies and secrets.... I see her beautiful bed that was ALWAYS made up the minute her feet hit the floor in the morning... I see her sewing machine where she loved to spend many an hour on her various sewing projects... I see her china hutch with all her treasures, china and crystal displayed... I see the dining room table that ALWAYS had a table cloth and flower arrangement on it... that is... when it wasn't loaded down with several delish dishes with family members sitting around it while they dined and chatted... and I still see her sitting on her green couch working on her latest craft project and chatting with me during many of my visits with her.  I dearly miss that I will never again ride the elevator up to her floor and walk down that long hallway to visit Grandma in her condo... but in my minds eye, and in my memory... I still see it all clearly, and always will!!

Grandma... you taught us all sooo much... you gave us all sooooo much love.... and we all miss you sooo much!!!  I am blessed to have been given the cloth doll that sat in the center of your bed... I believe it was given to you by the Judd girls one Christmas... it is made from an old white pillow case that had the initial "G"embroidered on her skirt... since I am the only one who has the same initial, it was given to me... she now sits in my chair in my bedroom and every night I talk to her and I kiss her good night... wishing it were you instead... but grateful all the same to feel you near me every night.

So while "Final Closure" is bittersweet... I will be focusing on the sweetness of all the loving memories I have of her, and times spent with her in her condo.  I LOVE YA GRANDMA!!!